She’s so beautiful. Our chemistry is off the charts. I admire the path she’s headed in now. I see her struggles, her pain, her upbringing, her hardships she’s endured in her life and I feel for her.
But ideally, she fails a couple of my rules that I look for in a woman.
My rules of certain woman to avoid:
1. Drugs
2. Baby mamas
3. Not over their ex’s
4. Ghetto
5. Promiscuous
6. Can’t make up their minds
7. Uses me
8. Gold Diggers
9. Not a sweet girl
10. Can’t dance or doesn’t party
I think there are more but I can’t think of anymore right now. This new girl breaks a couple of rules already. I do have a “savior” personality. I care a lot about my friends. Who would of thought this girl I met 2 years ago would have a big impact on my life right now. We’re in a complicated stage right now because of things she still needs to handle. We’re doing things that people outside would probably say its not right and that I need to chill. I care about her a lot. We also haven’t been very open with our relationship right now because of status in the media.
I haven’t been like this in awhile. Having someone I feel a potential for. It’s hard when you have a bond with someone this strong just to let it slip away. But I for one know all too well not to put all my eggs in one basket because everytime I’ve done that in the past, I’ve been screwed over and played. I’m just like whatever happens happens now I’m not going to feel bad like a “I told you so” moment if things fall apart because I’m expecting it. She trusts me more than I trust her right now. I'm still waiting to see if I can build trust with her. She has done some things that most people aren't proud of and wouldn't ever do. That keeps me in check without going ALL IN. Her past and present actions are making me think alot about things...
Sometimes you just can’t help but care….
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